forgive me if this isn't
perfect but i am not 
here to save anyone
in particular, not even
myself. when everyone
else wished to live
forever, i wished to 
live comfortably and
die somewhat alone,
like people should.
the american dream
is to be self-sufficient,
no? even if that means
eating yourself alive?

if i die today 
wasting everything 
or tomorrow having
wasted that much more,
you will have something
to remember me by.
i will make sure of
it.